-- 2017 | scattered-memoirs

2017

Hello and Assalamualaikum everyone!


It has been SO SO SO LONG after my last post right. i mean like. so so long.

Honestly I actually have the time to blog even though i got into a boarding school but everytime i got back from my school for every two weeks, i mostly spent my time sleeping...and couldnt be bothered to update... but im trully surprised that they were still people who came to visit my blog despite my inactiveness :o thank you so so much~

So far, throughout the year, my new school is OK. But of course i went through lots of things and I guess they are just something i need to experience in other to make myself better. Actually i forgot to mention. a few weeks after i got into TIKL, i received an offer from MRSM. but i didnt go for it....my dad called my school office a few days before i need to register.. so i had like only two days to think.. and it was hard but i chose to follow my mom's order.. she said it's better for me not to go since it is too far..... but now i lowkey i regret for not going though.. i mean, ive always wanted to get into MRSM since form 1 but now that i got the chance...i let it go just like that..?

Anyway. lets get into the bright side. I have created so many memories in my new school, embarassing, happy ones or even sad ones. 2017 have been such a thrilling roller coaster.


As for my studies, im doing well. But sometimes i do think i cant cope with my subjects and i feel like returning back to my old school.. Accounts is easy for me but for the few last topics they are kind of hard. For my finals, my results were really bad. I didnt do well for my accounts paper because the whole paper 2 was filled with 'Pelarasan' questions which im not good at. I scored paper 1 pretty well but sadly paper 2 wasnt helping :(


As you can see, my result didnt really improve... as for the accounts subject, during my first few months i really hated accounts because i went to a national level camp to represent Kuala Lumpur and i missed out so many accounts classes. I only receive the 'light' to learn account 2  months before finals by myself. I was able to understand but sadly i dont really understand the last few topics so my final marks for accounts still turned out bad :/

I really hope I can do better for 2018 because it is my SPM year :( I hope everyone who is reading this wish for me to receive 10A+ for my SPM (´。• ᵕ •。`) ♡

Moving on, I wanna talk about Jonghyun's case. (you can skip this if you're not interested though)


Truthfully, I'm still in disbelief until today. It still feels surreal. I cant believe, someone like jonghyun, the one who is expected the least to do something like this. 

Growing up as a fan of shinee, i thought i would be able to see 5 of them grow old together, get married and have kids. I have never imagine for one of them to end up like this. Never have i ever.

It's sad.. realizing the fact that I used to say 
People will only realize one's worth until they're gone
And now I'm doing it, I regret so much for not showing as much affection as I could to him...He deserves better.. Jonghyun is such a talented person and I'd never regret for adoring someone like him.

I hope after this people will be much more aware of their surrounding, especially their loved ones. Please look up to those who you love and make sure they're okay. You know sometimes people dont really show what they truly feel because theyre afraid of what people will think of them. They're afraid people will only say that they're overacting and that theyre just joking around.

I hate the fact that I've never notice what he felt this whole time.. I mean just look at the lyrics of the songs he composed.. He truly was in need of help..
It’s alright if you run out of breath
No one will blame you
It’s okay to make mistakes sometimes
Because anyone can do so
Although comforting by saying it’s alright
Are just words 
Those are the lyrics from Lee Hi's Breathe that was composed and lyrics by Jonghyun...I'm so upset of myself because I was unable to notice anything...


If you are facing some sort of problems, please find someone to talk about it. Or if you are feeling stressed out, pls do something that can tone down the stress. Like listening to your favourite songs or watching funny videos. It does help, at least to me! I hope you dont keep feelings by yourself and seek for help. 


I'm sorry for not posting much this whole 2017. I thought i could post more but didnt get to manage my time well. Still, please look forward for my upcoming posts these last few days of 2017! If you have any suggestion for what should I write next do tell me on my comment box below~

Till then, good bye! (´。• ω •。`)

That Ravenclaw

Thank you for reading! xoxo, That Ravenclaw.

22 comments:

  1. I did much worse when I was in form 4 ;-; but things could have sudden change. One thing I have learned along my 'growing' process is that - hard work would never betray you :D Himnae !

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    1. thank you for the supportive words~ i will try my best to multiply my effort for next year <3

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  2. It's okay to write regularly as long as you don't stop blogging coz I'll miss your writings if you do so. I'm sure you can catch up on your studies for SPM. Remember that SPM is not everything but everything starts with SPM. Wish you all the best!
    I was shocked when I heard about Jonghyun's death. I'm not a Shawol but I did feel sad and cried a bit watching his old videos. Really unexpected coz he didn't look like the type that could ended up this way :(
    How bout write about that national level camp yo went to? That sounds interesting :)

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    1. thank you for the kind wishes!! yes me too ;-; i was literally watching videos of shinee a day before jonghyun's news came out and it happened the next day so it was v hard for me to accept the reality t__t anyway i really wanted to write about the camp i went to but it was a 4 days and 3 nights camp so im afraid it will be a long story XD plus it happened like in february i barely remember anything anymore XD but thanks for the suggestion! Xx

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  3. Hi! i've been waiting for your post for such a longgg period, and here they are!! you're pretty smart tho. your result was like 'WOW' i failed my addmath the entire year. and there's you not failing it. not even once. it motivates me to study harder. anyway, wishing you receive 10A+ on your SPM! cheer up, luv ya! (*‿*✿)

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    1. hello!! thats so sweet of you u___u thank you so so much for the kinds words i hope the best for you too~ anyway dont you have a blog? because i clicked at your profile and there isnt any link ;-;

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    2. yes i do! https://fws00blog.blogspot.my/ haha i don't know how to set it up -,- lol

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  5. You still have time to get ready for next year, goodluck awak insyaAllah!! :)

    Pasal jonghyun tu memang unexpected betul. Even dah berapa hari dah but i still talked about him hm.

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  6. if he could be stronger TT_TT and for your result, its gonna be okay my dear you still have time and please use it wisely :D you can improve it ^^

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  7. Your result is pretty amazing..! I hope you could cope with accountancy soon and no worries, I had a hard time coping with it during form 4 but scored in it during the final year.. About Jonghyun, I was totally shocked knowing that he decided to end it that way.. :I

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    1. thank you for the supportive words <3 me either :( little did we realize it has been a week since the case :c

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  8. it's okay, you still have time. as long as you use your time wisely, surely you can improve in your studies. I wish you the best for SPM, wish me too hehe (I'm waiting for my result).

    Right after Taeyang's good news and I was so happy, I opened my twitter and there was bunches of tweets about Jonghyun. I was in disbelief bcs he was my first bias ever and he meant a lot for me. He was a huge part in my childhood and his death did put me in a gloomy vibe for days. I can never listen to Breathe the same anymore T_T

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    1. good luck and all the best!! thank you v much <33

      omg same!!! the news about jh came out around 6pm but i only knew about it around 10-ish because my day was filled with events the whole day i felt so bad TTTT right, same, i can never listen to breathe or any of his songs nor shinee's songs the same way anymore. it will always remind me of this and idk why but everytime i look at the sky it will also remind me of jh TTTT he left so many people deeply affected t___t

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  9. Good luck awak :) believe in yourself, put more efforts, trust Him, make du'as and in sha Allah you're all good and can do well in sha Allah :)

    https://syemasaid.blogspot.my/

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  10. it's hard to believe the sudden news about jonghyun. been a fan of shinee since their early days. followed u here #317. come visit n follow my new blog

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    1. thank you for the follow!! will do when im free~ <3

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  11. Happy New Year and good luck for your SPM!

    My advice towards SPM takers are usually the same lol. Stay sway from the Internet (basically try to minimise using socmed because you're going to have so much free time after the exam is over.)

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    1. happy new year and thank you!! yes ive been spending less time on the internet bec day by day im used of not using it and realised theres nothing much to do with it XD

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